Is yet another new friend I've made recently. It started out that he and I were just random people who knew one person in common and never actually talked, and then on what would have been my dad's birthday, he commented on my journal entry on LJ and then we started talking on there for a few hours, leading to him giving me his email addy and phone number for texting, which was really neat of him. We've been nonstop texting each other for the past two days. It's cool to have a friend, especially one that John assumes I've been friends with for forever. I don't have to prove myself to John or Jason about this, and that's freaking awesome.
I've found religion again. I even asked someone about the Mormon religion and how it's different from Christianity. Said person is sending me bunches of reading material.
I wonder if he would understand and not just pity me if I told him about my relationship and stuff with John? I really hope not. This is the best connection I've had with someone in years, and I really don't want to lose that.
I really, really like him. I just kind of wish for my own jealous and personal needs that he'd break up with his g/f. I hate thinking like that, but being completely honest, it's true. I actually love this person, yeah, cliche I know, and I know that he feels at least a little bit of a connection with me as well. Just really wish that I had someone who would completely understand what John puts me through on a daily basis. The mental anguish I deal with, the bitching, the whining, he treats me like a slave most of the time and I just take it. And I'll continue to take it until I have funds to move out of here. I don't really have a choice.
So anyhow, John and his dad really got into it tonight, and his dad basically told him that he needs to find another place to live. We would have been kicked out had J not threatened his dad with breaking the lease. Heh. It expires in less than a year and I assume daddy dearest will be waiting for that exact moment. I've got to end this and find a place to stay. It's mandatory. Gotta love life.
About Me
- Princess X
- I won't say my name, but you can call me X. I live in the great state of Mississippi, near the Alabama border, where there's absolutely nothing to do. I'm heavy into smoking pot and wishing I had a life. Since I lead an incredibly boring life, I create and maintain blogs. I have a MySpace and LJ, used to have a UJ, and while I maintain those first two, there are too many people that know me, and I feel like speaking out to the world instead of just hiding behind a private entry. I'm suicidal, manic depressive, mentally depressed, and have severe anxiety. My life basically sucks. Enjoy.
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