Lovefool

"Lately I have desperately pondered,
Spent my nights awake and I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay
Reason will not pledge a solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
As long as you don't go..."

Really craving friendship at this point. Maybe I should just come on out to Michael and tell him that I might be interested in staying with him for a while if he'd have me. Oh, who am I kidding? Nobody's that freaking generous. And I could lose the little bit of a friendship that I do have with him just by asking.

So, I've got my radio stations up and running. Jamming to Madonna at the moment, cause I'm in a Pop-Alternative mood for some reason. Waiting for Duran Duran...


So anyhow, Michael seemed to completely ignore my text messages to him this morning which kind of pissed me off. But, seeing as how there's really nothing I can do about it, I get to just deal with it. John's been trying to sneak around and see what I've been up to on the computer. It's my fucking computer, bought with my fucking money, using my internet. Why is this any of your concern?

Anyhow, they've just made lunch and I have to go eat it. I may end up posting again tonight. I really just hope that John finds another reason to get out of the house for a couple hours. I really want to hang out with Michael today.